you come back when I'm already GONE
2005-03-21 at 8:37 p.m.
Half a year ago, falling for a boy resulted in months of crying and yearns for the past. He taught me things I never thought I'd hold on to for so long. I promised myself there and then that I wouldn't let myself go through what I did in those five months.
A year later, I'm back to square one and my conscious tells me to uphold the promise. I notice that something in me disagrees and wants to give in.
I'm told to stop being so uptight but I can't. I don't want whatever he'll bring because I know I'll receive a sense of deja vu.
You think you're right but I know, no matter how hard you try, you won't break into the wall I've surrounded myself with. You won't convince me because it takes a whole lot more than the three words.